Hello! This is my first time on this website. If this isn’t the place to ask these questions, please let me know. Thank you!
Recently i’ve felt very discouraged, about my progress, and not having much to show for it. My education has mostly been self taught/youtube tutorials, and while a lot are very helpful, I don’t really have anyone to ask when I get stuck, and the difficult “waiting days for any responses” thing, so most of the time my projects go in the trash bin, and I don’t finish anything. I was thinking that if I spend money on courses/academies, I could possibly see progress from the interactive-ness of that experience, but it also raised a few questions for me;
“If i’m going to pay to take this seriously and improve, would it be better to go all the way and get industry software?”
Right now i’m only using blender, and the reason I started was to find a free alternative to become a cg artist, but I wondered, if i’m going to spend money to get education, should I just buy everything including industry software as well? Should I continue using it?
“Where will I get the money?”
While the common answer is “get a job”, right now i’m a bit stuck (because of my job I have little free time and everything goes to basic necessities) and doing commissions seems to be the only option. But in order to do commissions, I need to be at a certain level that I can be somewhat marketable, and all I have is youtube tutorials, and i’m not doing too well with it because I don’t have anyone to ask for my learning gaps and techniques, but in order to get that I need to spend money, and in order to get money I need to do commissions. It feels like a catch 22, and the process is a staircase/mountain, but the first floor is on fire and I can’t pay for the ladder. How do I just try to run through it so I can do commissions and pay for the ladder for the rest of the stairs? Sorry if this is a silly analogy.
Also, for people that are teachers/have been doing cg for a while, how did you get to the level you were at? Did you pay for education, were you self taught? If so, how did you figure things out? If there weren’t many resources/affordable teaching, how did you learn things yourself? If you learnt things yourself and then accumulated money from commissions to pay for education, how did you “run through the fire” initially? Sorry again if this is a weird or silly way to phrase it.
But I also believe that I could improve my learning process and becoming more self reflective and efficient when learning even without an active instructor, how do I solve my own questions? How do I be more intuitive? How do I learn how to learn being self taught? How do I figure out how to get the money? How do I figure out how to go about everything, and stay motivated? I really want to quit, I feel really ashamed of my progress and my works, I wish I could be good enough to like them. Thank you.