Hi All, thank you!
I respect all the comments here
first, I think that I still need a lot of improvement, thats why Im here, CGtalk sketch book, I ve seen a lot of great sketches , so I wish I could learn from all you guys and girls.
I think my bg is so confusing ^^
I grew up with comics, games, and movies.
I started to read disney comics, then early DC/marvel comic,
after that I read manga/anime which is influence my illustration style a lot.
I almost want to be a comic artist that create story and graphics on my own, but I know thats still not really possible in my country.
at the same time I studied life drawing/photo drawing and fine art painting (non college), which is luckily still help me to achieve the realism/color … sometimes I went to local traditional art gallery.
actually, I also started to love CG, at that time, and played a lot of games … so I tought that I already lost my interest to comics and paintings. and want to be a game/movie artist.
then I learn CG, and make my first CG, I tought that cg doesnt need traditional knowledge anymore as long as its look like in the movie and games, its already good. but I was wrong,
it always turn out like cg-ish lifeless artwork. then I realized that cg and fine-art must be together.
thats why I always keep drawing untill now.
which artist to admire? a lot!
random example : Akira Toriyama(DBZ) ,Herge(TinTin) , Derek Riggs (Illustrator of IronMaiden cover), Yoji Shinkawa (metal gear),
etc etc etc 
Im so sorry I only have few images to post now, I ll get/scan some more if I have a time …