HaHahaha, I probably shouldn’t be laughing, but you guys are cracking me up, too, you know! But please, please, please, do me one favor: Don’t develop a beef over me and my failings!
I do regret sometimes that I havn’t stolen the time to make tutorials, but instead I take it to do some fancy fun little images or animations. It is my weakness, that I use my energy intensely for the things that I have to do and with the remains I like to explore what’s within me as an artist as opposed to a teacher. I love teaching and do it anytime I see the chance to. In my original website I wanted to have a big tutorial section, but never got to make any. I eventually gave up on that concept altogether, because I just knew how things go in my life and decided that when I am doing tutorials, I will do them big and long and as complete as I can in one big run. I don’t want to throw some “meaningless” snippits on there, that can not really satisfy the function they are supposed to fullfill. However, I had decided to make my new homepage really just a gallery. A chance for me to just share the stuff that comes from my heart and my true passion. It’s the chance to not just let it sit on a hard-drive till the day it has a headcrash (a fate that several of my pieces had already!).
Online I’ve spread a lot of information as I managed to write them. Just on CGtalk alone I have quite a few things buried within the threads, unfortunately, but they usually are specific to the problems people are having or for the soul purpose of inspiring as opposed to spoon feeding them. I don’t like that concept altogether, because people should always engage their own mind to discover the things they need in order to create what they want to create. I love showing the way, pointing out the direction and what to think about and try to cover what they’d need to know. I would never claim that I’m doing a good job in that, but it’s what my intentions are! Inspire! Maybe even motivate, hopefully motivate!
I find it flattering to see such fury over my failings, Zombietic, but I urge you to look around and inform yourself before you start making claims. What you can say and you have the right to say that for sure, is that I should at least put the tutorials that I wrote and the informations that I gave either directly on my website or at least put up the links to them. I’m glad I understand now why I didn’t understand exactly what you were talking about. But to clarify that once and for all: I HAVE NO 3D SECRETS! I share it all with great pleasure and I’m absolutely ecstatic to see how those, who know me are backing me up like that.
Very funny how this goes, a bizarrely disappointed artist in a growing rage triggers reactions from you that make me so deeply happy. If I hadn’t said that much already, I would have said I don’t know what to say.
Anyway, I can’t promiss anything right now, but I do take this complaint very seriously and see that I spend my time not in dumping three star images onto a gallery, but to organize the information I can give and make it available on my website. Oh, just one more thing. A lot of times I wasn’t sure if I had enough of a perfect way already explored to allow myself to teach it, because I’m always afraid that it may not help the progression of 3D as much, if I was leading people the wrong way. It is vital to me, that I at least know, that what I show is really pointing towards the right direction. By now I am much more confident, as I know the power of my current setup. The freedome and strength that comes with these techniques is so liberating and empowering, that I’m nearly fearless and certainly on top about the things I create. I know that if I get to fully make you understand how this all works, you will have the technical knowledge to get there, too. But don’t misunderstand the meaning of such tutorials and the ability of such tutorials. They can only help to bring out what’s within you. It’s your passion that has to be above all you may learn. Don’t blame it on information or missing information, if you don’t seem to get where you want to go. Instead understand this: A true artist never gets to where he wants to go, but the artist is never disappointed about it, but instead anxious, excited and happy to keep going on! So you might be surprised to hear how close you are to a true artist, just don’t be unhappy but progress! I’ve learned it almost all just by myself. I had no magic tutorial (except the rollercoaster car one in 1993 or so) and only had the desire to understand. Don’t ever rely on any information you find about a technique that you should use. That is total bull, really. I will present to you a technique that works for me beautifully and I’m confident it should inspire those, who weren’t aware of it, yet. But it still will not be the perfect solution for yourself! You have to take each and every tutorial as an inspiration instead of a guideline! All the real information you need is already there so you can make it all up yourself! But, again, I help with great pleasure!
Ah well…this is becoming more and more a subject for a conversation as opposed to a silly big-a$$ monoloque, so I’m sorry if I was preaching a little too much, but if anything it hopefully shows to you that I do care and I care a lot. And before any possible troll-like behavior kicks in from anyone, I’m not out to save my skin, infact, if you knew my skin, you’d know I don’t care about that! (can’t laugh)…so don’t pile up another hump of bad spirit on my behalf.
Meats, you give me reason to think about that sex-change operation…HAHAHA…but my wife just…won’t…let go…and I really got used to my own flat chest and you know all the rest, plus I don’t think your wife would like me anymore. Thank you for sticking up for me like that. Oh, and don’t think I misread anything, Zombietic doesn’t quite seem to be my type to begin with…HAHAHAHA (can laugh again!).
Crossbones…what the hell…I remember when people were telling me not to do graphics but music only and other would say it the other way around and it would always hurt me for one or the other side instead of making me happy. But you just managed to make it sound like the nicest compliment to abandon 3d. Thank you for that! But no! Plus, I’m not so good at that 2d stuff, yet. I look at Linda Bergkvist’s (Enayla) stuff and almost feel ashamed to even try, haha.
Don’t let all of that be yet another spark to start beefing around, please. That’s not a thread for a damn silly display of “rage”, but damn silly “art”.