alicelefay
10-09-2008, 10:39 PM
Ok this is hard!
Let's see how to introduce the whole thing.
I'm passing one of that "no inspiration - no satisfaction" moods, when you have no ideas, or, much worse, when you are not able to paint the ideas you have in mind; a lack of skills, of motivation...maybe the impression that you are going exactly...NOWHERE.
I draw since I was a child; always self-taught and with no possibilities to follow an art course (at the moment, at least).
I was a lonely child, drawing was my perfect magic to run away from this world and walk inside my dreams.
I was used to be a silent person, drawing was the way to put on paper the deep feeling I had inside.
Drawing like breathing...maybe more important.
Then life changes and make you change. I went into a really bad period and I found the whole myself in discussion; it's still this way for the most aspects of my life.
In all this it comes a new way to look at my art.
Growing as a person, being forced to face reality and to be hurted by it; having lot of questions and frequently no answers. Feeling mostly confused and not safe at all.
In this big "?", feeling the need to find again my art.
Feeling the need to be able once again to let all my deeper feelings come out on a canvas.
And this is how I decided to start this thread.
Last night I was sleepless and found myself reading this thread:
http://forums.cgsociety.org/showthread.php?f=166&t=655287
For some points of view, I found there the question I was posing to myself.
Probably I won't never be a professionist in this field, maybe I will just spend my life drawing for myself and it will be good.
But the real problem is that in any case, my skills are still not enough for me.
Painting is no more funny because it keeps getting frustrating to never reach what I have in mind.
Obviously you look at your best favored artists and you think: "Ok I will never reach this".
Maybe you see a lot of paintings by other people and they always look better than yours, at your eyes.
But apart from these, I think, common problems, there's the basic one: when you feel like stuck, when you don't have the right knowledge to do something not in the perfect way, but at least "near" to it.
I'm a quite shy person, and really sensitive on my art. I find really difficult to share it, I find really difficult to expose myself to cryticism.
Well, I'm a perfectionist and something inside my mind thinks that if I'm not perfect and someone notices it, the whole world could fall on me ^_^
But...life is teaching me that you need to be brave and to pass over your limits, in order to have a result.
It's a daily approach, it's a self discipline.
It's hard to do!!
So here I am, feeling naked in front of CG community, ready to share with you my scraps, and opened to all comments that you will desire to leave me.
This thread is my daily self-discipline.
I will post my sketches, my WIP, my scraps...my thoughts and my plans somethimes, too :p
I hope this will help me to keep up with the work, to be strong and strive for my final result.
Above all, I hope this will become a nice place to talk about myself in the way I prefer more...with drawings!
_________________________________________________________
So let's start.
It seems that I need a plan for it to work.
I thought about it the whole day.
I think I need to focus on 3 things above all:
- drawing - human anatomy above all
- colour theory
- basic landscape painting
Drawing because I noticed that this is really the base structure of everything you will paint after; I need a good base to start with, and since I never learned how to achieve "the good line", I think it needs some work.
For human anatomy...I'm not so bad at basic proportions I think, but I still have a lot of difficulties in the drawing from mind and in the complex poses.
So I'm putting myself on the study if Bridgman's anathomy books, this time in a methodical way. I'm thinking of something like...read 2 chapters at day and doing 15 sketches from it (open to suggestions please ^_^)
Colour theory. I never decided the colours of my works. I mean, the colours simply went in and there, without any precise rule. Everything as always been a coincidence, both working or not ^_^
This includes light study, of course.
So I think this needs some work on, too.
I have no idea to where to start from for this, so any suggestion would be a bless.
Basic landscape. This involves perspective too, and I'm already scared.
By the way, I'm really sick to paint plain backgrounds behind my figure just because I'm not able to realize a good backdrop. I think that some matting reading could be helpful to achieve a "feeling" about landscapes. Then perspective studies (spooky!!).
I don't need to become a landscape painter at the moment, but just to achieve the ability to draw a good background for my figures and to put the right mood in it.
I think that 1 background sketching at day would be ok.
As supplementar work, I was thinking about:
2 general speedpainting at day
1 figure speedpainting
-------------------------
So...now I feel really scared, but also excited at the idea that all my work will have a direction and not just a confused and meaningless running around.
I hope to receive some good suggestions, I hope to be strong enough to believe in myself ( :p ), and I hope that this journey will be full of fun!!!
:D
Let's see how to introduce the whole thing.
I'm passing one of that "no inspiration - no satisfaction" moods, when you have no ideas, or, much worse, when you are not able to paint the ideas you have in mind; a lack of skills, of motivation...maybe the impression that you are going exactly...NOWHERE.
I draw since I was a child; always self-taught and with no possibilities to follow an art course (at the moment, at least).
I was a lonely child, drawing was my perfect magic to run away from this world and walk inside my dreams.
I was used to be a silent person, drawing was the way to put on paper the deep feeling I had inside.
Drawing like breathing...maybe more important.
Then life changes and make you change. I went into a really bad period and I found the whole myself in discussion; it's still this way for the most aspects of my life.
In all this it comes a new way to look at my art.
Growing as a person, being forced to face reality and to be hurted by it; having lot of questions and frequently no answers. Feeling mostly confused and not safe at all.
In this big "?", feeling the need to find again my art.
Feeling the need to be able once again to let all my deeper feelings come out on a canvas.
And this is how I decided to start this thread.
Last night I was sleepless and found myself reading this thread:
http://forums.cgsociety.org/showthread.php?f=166&t=655287
For some points of view, I found there the question I was posing to myself.
Probably I won't never be a professionist in this field, maybe I will just spend my life drawing for myself and it will be good.
But the real problem is that in any case, my skills are still not enough for me.
Painting is no more funny because it keeps getting frustrating to never reach what I have in mind.
Obviously you look at your best favored artists and you think: "Ok I will never reach this".
Maybe you see a lot of paintings by other people and they always look better than yours, at your eyes.
But apart from these, I think, common problems, there's the basic one: when you feel like stuck, when you don't have the right knowledge to do something not in the perfect way, but at least "near" to it.
I'm a quite shy person, and really sensitive on my art. I find really difficult to share it, I find really difficult to expose myself to cryticism.
Well, I'm a perfectionist and something inside my mind thinks that if I'm not perfect and someone notices it, the whole world could fall on me ^_^
But...life is teaching me that you need to be brave and to pass over your limits, in order to have a result.
It's a daily approach, it's a self discipline.
It's hard to do!!
So here I am, feeling naked in front of CG community, ready to share with you my scraps, and opened to all comments that you will desire to leave me.
This thread is my daily self-discipline.
I will post my sketches, my WIP, my scraps...my thoughts and my plans somethimes, too :p
I hope this will help me to keep up with the work, to be strong and strive for my final result.
Above all, I hope this will become a nice place to talk about myself in the way I prefer more...with drawings!
_________________________________________________________
So let's start.
It seems that I need a plan for it to work.
I thought about it the whole day.
I think I need to focus on 3 things above all:
- drawing - human anatomy above all
- colour theory
- basic landscape painting
Drawing because I noticed that this is really the base structure of everything you will paint after; I need a good base to start with, and since I never learned how to achieve "the good line", I think it needs some work.
For human anatomy...I'm not so bad at basic proportions I think, but I still have a lot of difficulties in the drawing from mind and in the complex poses.
So I'm putting myself on the study if Bridgman's anathomy books, this time in a methodical way. I'm thinking of something like...read 2 chapters at day and doing 15 sketches from it (open to suggestions please ^_^)
Colour theory. I never decided the colours of my works. I mean, the colours simply went in and there, without any precise rule. Everything as always been a coincidence, both working or not ^_^
This includes light study, of course.
So I think this needs some work on, too.
I have no idea to where to start from for this, so any suggestion would be a bless.
Basic landscape. This involves perspective too, and I'm already scared.
By the way, I'm really sick to paint plain backgrounds behind my figure just because I'm not able to realize a good backdrop. I think that some matting reading could be helpful to achieve a "feeling" about landscapes. Then perspective studies (spooky!!).
I don't need to become a landscape painter at the moment, but just to achieve the ability to draw a good background for my figures and to put the right mood in it.
I think that 1 background sketching at day would be ok.
As supplementar work, I was thinking about:
2 general speedpainting at day
1 figure speedpainting
-------------------------
So...now I feel really scared, but also excited at the idea that all my work will have a direction and not just a confused and meaningless running around.
I hope to receive some good suggestions, I hope to be strong enough to believe in myself ( :p ), and I hope that this journey will be full of fun!!!
:D